Friday, September 23, 2005
so.. its been a week now since I said my goodbyes and landed back edinburgh. as predicted, the goodbyes were.. sad. been doing lotsa stuff to get settled in like buying a washing machine, microwave, setting up the internet, etc.. oh and getting a new desk as my desk in my room was literally a piece of driftwood..
ben went for his shoulder op yesterday.. oh how i wished i could have been there with and for him.. i slept incredibly badly tht night, waking up every hour worrying constantly.. it didnt make sense though, i knew he'd be fine, especially since he was in the hands of a top notch surgeon. But, i figured i hated the fact that my baby was going to be put under GA for the first time, with funny instruments going into him, and i kept envisioning him on the operating table, and I just didnt like it.
he did call me after his op but i didnt get the find out much cos his friend had just come to visit.. but didnt hear from him after. Only found out in the early hours of this morning that he was in much pain and having a fever. Tears came to my eyes.
I miss him so so much and I wish I could do something to make him feel better.. but I guess i have to just leave him alone to rest.. which is so hard to do as I so wanna hear his voice so bad.. =@(
pictures will come later i promise.. i just feel too much of a mess to upload my photos now.
babs ♥
7:47 am
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