behind the mask

Sunday, November 27, 2005

ok.. im feeling it..cyclic waves of stress.. with all muscle fibres just that wee bit tensed up.. and every nerve ending a lil bit more sensitised then usual.. and more aware of my own shallow breathing.. ever get that? ---

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Thursday, November 24, 2005

so .. this is the ralph lauren pink pony sweater that i want but cannot afford.. i just love the logo.. been surfing online ebay to find it but to no avail... boohoo. haha. but they do have the T shirts in the same design which are much cheaper.. i might just get it from ebay.. mmm... decisions decisions..
ahh.. anyway time for some therapeutic blogging. haha..

been a lil hermit in my cold room of mine studying... productivity IS getting better.. but i feel like i know things yet i dont? ya know the feeling? yeah if you do, boy it sucks.

anyway.. feeling much better nowadays.. =@) smile bk on my face with out a load to carry about.. hehe..

caught Harry potter the other day! was really good.. though some strange friends of mine thought it was sexed up. ok this friend, - was a guy. haha...strangee.. well they did zoom in on the french girls asses.. haha. and I noticed harry's has bodily hair and muscles now.. hahaa how strange after seeing him a young cutchie wutchie in the previous films. I still maintain my stand that he's gonna grow up to be real good looking once his face matures - he's got potential. and so will hermoine..mm

i cannottt wait to come home.. so excited ! I always like walking along orchard at night admist the festive atmosphere and the christmas lights..christmas isnt christmas till i spend it at home.. strange but true.
=@)

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Saturday, November 19, 2005

i hate the nights..

why do I feel like this.. someone please drag me out of my lil hole..

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cold cold day.... im like practically freezin in my room. giam flat mates is all i will say. mm..

managed to complete 2 lectures on neuroscience.. this nerve fibre cross here cross there cross everywhere! ahh! haha.. ahh well.. had a nice conversation with my favourite girl Miss Lee Chuiling.. so nice to talk to you babe. somehow i feel a lil stronger after talking to you.. i guess ill always remain the soft barbs inside even though ive toughened the outside since coming the UK, still remmeber how you wrote " 10 ways to stand up for yourself" in my physics textbook cover.. i think i lost it though =@( but ill never forget that.. =@)

i got my flight everyone.. really Praise God from whom all blessings flow.. flying out from manchester on 16th dec morning 10 am.. i cannot wait to go home..

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Wednesday, November 16, 2005

ok im like majorly procrastinatin and its BADDDD. i really dont like the starting to study bit of exams.. once you start its fine. but the startin bit it justtt painful. haha.. ok maybe not painful but you know what i mean. SO, i decided to blog to get a headstart.. dont really know how that works, but it should hopefully.

anyway spoke to ben last night!! actually.. this morning at 3 am. i was soo happy.. =@) plus some of the stuff he told me was just.. nice. *grin* hehe.. but after we put down, i couldnt sleep for ages.. i duno, maybe it was the endorphins running through my body which kept my brain running in circles bout things in general.. i think i only went bk to sleep at bout 5 plus? then got up at 8 to go to school again.. surprisingly not like dead tired..

plsplspls let me get my flight on SQ... sigh sigh sigh. i just need that to go through and ill be a thoroughly happy bunny again. mmz.. plus i dont have a plan B. so..

ok change of topic, too depressing to continue. going to watch nutcracker tomorrow at edinburgh playhouse! quite exciting.. havent watched something like that for a while man.. and going out for dinner as a flat before.. which is always nice =@) catching the new harry potter film on friday too.. hehe..

and the time in between? hopefully filled with work.. i really no action talk only man. sheesh.

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mary me and becky.. who's our 3rd flatmate..

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mary and I again.. this time at wenjing's birthday dinner at Lee On ( apparently the best we've got in edinburgh according to the m'sians).. its alright la.. haha but obviously my standards get lowered here in edinburgh... BUT we did have lobster! haha.. 13 pounds per head.. yum. we 2 were like the most dressed up.. haha

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my beeeuuutiful T bars which i bought yesterday! hahaa.. super uber bargain mans.. 10 pounds which translates to 30 sing. original price 65 POUNDS! goodeh? hehe.. been trotting around in them.. hehe. i know, how female.

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Monday, November 14, 2005

so the boy's coming bk in 2 days... cant wait... DYING to hear his voice again.. ok enough public mush. mm its like 4 weeks to exams? so doesn't feel like it.. neither does it feel like christmas is coming.. im beginning to think that as i grow older, christmas will start feeling less and less christmassy... sigh. that really really sucks. its supposed to be the nicest time of year, and if it dont feel like it.. how can right?

birthdays are also a pain sometimes, unless youre surrounded by ALL your loved ones and ALL your friends. but i guess im lucky that my bday is in dec, but even then, all my good friends now are in the UK and most dont go bk in christmas. plus obviously my uni friends are here... so technically on my bday itself im struggling to find how to celebrate it. no doubt spending it with ben alone is always nice, but what abouoot what i turn 21 when id love to have a big do..i duno mans.

i know ive told this to some people, but id love to give myself a frontal lobe lobotomy - just for a while.. what bliss.

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Tuesday, November 08, 2005

i miss the boy. =@( seems like a lifetime since ive talked to him.. actually its been eh 1.5 weeks? cant wait for him to come bk from taiwan..

anwayyy... watched LEGEND OF ZORRO!! if you havent watched it, go watch! its greattt entertainment.. haha. ive discovered how nice and soothing quaker oats with milk and sugar is... hot and soothing.. ah. haha... its my new love. and it good carbs too.. haha as you can tell, ive started my diet. dont know how successful i will be with it though this time... =@S

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Saturday, November 05, 2005